Another year? Really? Already?

Can't quite believe its that time again,  the end of another year.  Its been a mixed one, should be able to say a mighty fine one but somehow there is no sparkle.  Maybe thats my problem, always looking for the sparkle and always expecting to be disappointed.
Ok so 2013, here's the stuff i want to achieve:

1) continue to bring my son up to the best of my ability so that he can develop into a lovely, kind and intelligent young man
2) settle into my new job - act professionally at all times, no gossip, no backchat in the office
3) make one or two new close friends, ideally other single mums

Doesn't sound too daunting now I've typed it!  Yesssssss, lets go for it x

Summer - time to think

Here we are in the Summer holidays again.  My favourite time of the year, its no contest.  Its so good to catch my breath, catch up with my son, my friends, the state of my house, and the state of my mind.
Its been a good few months, work is work, routine is routine and my son's happiness remains priority.  The Olympics have injected a great atmosphere into the nation.

Been seeing a guy.  He's decent.  A good bloke.  Seems it anyway.  What now?  Goodness knows.  Its been such a long time (if ever) since I was at this stage or felt this way that I've no idea how to behave, how to nurture this delicate relationship growing from goodness.  Sometimes we annoy each other.  When will I stop thinking that marks the end.  When will I be able to believe that actually days like that need to come to test and strengthen our relationship, to truly understand each other.  We are both still wary.  Lets hope we can successfully navigate our respective demons.

Spring is starting to smile

Its amzing this week how everyone has started to smile again, the longest darkest days seem to be disappearing as quickly and silently as they crept up on us and are being replaced by an air of hope, its still cool but without the harsh edge and it seems to touch everyone.
Things have been going well for this start to the year, my son continues to grow up and I do my best to guide him as he learns that life is sadly not always easy but there is plenty of opportunity for fun, even in short stolen moments.
I'm learning to fence, a sport I have long wanted to try and just knowing that I have begun that journey is enough to make me hold my head up high. I have opened myself up to opportunity and it seems that opportunities are now rushing to meet me - I love my new outward looking view on life and am excited by every fun, good and kind thing that happens.
I still have  lots of work to do but its not getting me down right now, I can get by without getting stressed which is an exciting prospect for the coming years.  Not sure how I got through the past two, house move, renovations, new career, but I've made it and it feeld good.  The garden is the next project - do I go for it all myself or shall i pay for a design and some work to get me started?  Thats the next lovely challenge that I want to address.  Such an exciting time though, nesting into our home.  Anyway thats enough for now, am off for some beauty sleep so that I wake with energy to take on and enjoy the world tomorrow :)