The New Year

Whilst Pirates of the Caribbean outwit each other in the back ground it seems like the time to reflect and look forward.  On paper 2011 should not have been as bad as it seemed.  The only troublesome event being the sharp exit of one flaky boyfriend.  The high points must include my son quickly becoming an amazing footballer and captain of his team, my completion of my first year teaching, my promotion at school, two fantastic holidays, one just me and my boy, the other with the whole family.  On paper it sounds a pretty amazing year.  My true new years resolution starting now is to not let that idiotic flaky ex-boyfriend to cast a miserable shadow on any more of my future.  I want to appreciate, enjoy and smile at every darn good thing that happens along the way in 2012.  Yes, if I could shift a few pounds then great, if I can cook better food then that would be nice, if I meet the man of my dreams then that would just be unbelievable but most importantly, every time something good happens i want to recognise it, celebrate it and have time to enjoy it.  Happy New Year to everyone, here's  to the best ever xxxxxx

Dark dank December

Well its been a while.  But then it has been the Autumn term and it has quickly dawned on me that this term will always be difficult, new names, new procedures, everything needs proper attention, a lot of the real learning has to take place in these short dark days.  Just 7 more teaching days to go before Christmas and I'm starting to be able to breathe again.  I can see the end.  The observations are over for this term.  One set of tests and hundreds of books are marked, next set of tests will land on my lounge floor next Friday.I'm on track for Christmas though, cards written, ready to be posted tomorrow - a stream lined list this year, if you receive one you're a true friend.  Most of the presents bought and even a slot found in my diary to wrap them.
Things are going well with son, I am so proud of him, I am amazed everytime I look at him.  I need to look after myself a little more - proper food and exercise would help.  Thats the new years resolutions sorted then.  This time last year I was getting ready for our Christmas holiday with the boyfriend and our new blended family - on the plane he picked an argument over nothing, I should have known at that moment that he wasn't the man I had thought he was.  Little did I know what a short length of time our relationship had left to run.  Has he thought about me since April?  I find it sad to think I'll never know.  I'm ok though.  He wasn't in love with me.  Not the real me.  Which was why i proved to be such a great disappointment to him.  He hadn't even discovered the real me.  I think I'm only just finding me, maybe he had no chance.